I Still Am Very Happy

I still am very happy...
I use my energy to the maximum level almost everyday...and I feel tired...but I still am very happy. My legs are sometimes feel very weak when I have to walk to and fro the classroom and my room and the quality room...yet...I still am very happy. I often have my breakfast quite late at 10 or 11 and have lunch at 3 but I still am very happy...When I go home and I see lots of things to be done...I use to take a deep breath and I still am vey happy...Almost all things that I do everyday and things that happen in my everyday life...I find that 'Life is Really Like That'...
I always feel very happy because I can perform my Solat on time. Besides, I have a wonderful husband and fascinating little children. Furthermore, I have a career which I love most...teaching. I am surrounded by many wonderful people! Awesome!!!

How I Make-Up Myself

To be frank, I make-up myself not only physically but also the other aspects of me. So what are those? First and foremost, the spiritual element. I realize that spiritual strength and beauty come from Allah the Almighty. So, I pray to Allah so that He loves me every second (setiap detik dan ketika atau lebih pantas daripada itu). When He loves me, I get His attention, insyaAllah. For me, His attention is the basis of all attentions that we get from others for an example, attention from parents, partners, friends and so on. Because I know, Allah shows His attention in many ways. I feel secure when I do not make Him angry. Thus, I feel relax, confident and joyful. For me, spiritual strength is the basis of all other strength that everyone see in me.

I Need Guidance

I need guidance...
Every time, every second...
I want to do the right thing
And I want to do things right...
But it does not happen all the time...

Most of the time, I just do whatever is required from me
As a resposibility..
As a must..
There are things which I thought of not doing but I did anyway..
There are things that I thought of doing and is required from me to do but I did not perform

There are times when I just simply ignore things that are very crucial...
Not because I refuse to do it but because of other reasons...
At times, I lose my strength...
But, to appreciate the time that I have, the ones that I love, the students, everything...
I keep smiling...
Even though I myself not sure whether I am happy or not..
It is just a matter of appreciation...

I need guidance from Allah that everything will be all right...
I need guidance to live longer...
I need guidance anytime, anywhere...